He is the Potter, I am the Clay

Last night, I had a dream: that I was creating pottery. The shape of the clay wasn’t holding and at one point David commented that “it’s no good. Look, there’s a hole in it.” My attitude was one of “try, try, again” because of course a pot, or a cup is of no use with a hole in it. So I started over.

Have you ever thrown pottery? Have you ever worked with clay?

It takes a lot of time. It’s messy. You don’t throw once to make a perfect product. You will make mistakes and have to correct them. You will have to start over a lot. You make a lot of adjustments. Patience and persistence is needed. And if you are a master artist, you are also the one having “the most fun” while doing it.

For me, a beginner, I’ve thrown pottery on a wheel once. Once, I visited artist Karen DeLoach’s house (https://www.karendeloachart.com/) with friends and she coached us one-by-one how to make a bowl in her pottery studio. Let’s be honest, Karen was actually shaping the bowl, by cupping her hands over mine and giving instructions on how to shape it, hold it, keep it wet, etc. all while quoting Jeremiah 18.

“Then I went down to the potter’s house, and saw that he was working at the wheel. But the vessel that he was making from clay was spoiled by the potter’s hand; so he made it over, reworking it and making it into another pot that seemed good to him. Then the word of the Lord came to me: “O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter does? says the Lord. Look carefully as the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in My hand, O house of Israel.” -Jeremiah 18:3-5- (Amplified version)

I found that clay is harder to manipulate than I originally thought. (We are stubborn like that aren’t we?) You have to press down and in with your thumbs pretty hard. You have to make deliberate choices with your hands and press into it for it to take shape. It’s not as easy as that Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze scene in the movie “Ghost” makes it appear. Perhaps you can “go with the flow” and not have a vision for your end creation in mind and “just see what happens.” This attitude sounds so freeing and liberating at first, but really might become frustrating for you. I was realizing that, if you don’t have balance and have even pressure on the clay you are working with, it will quickly become lumpy and uneven on one side. If you don’t correct it quickly (more clay and water), then it it becomes off-center on the spinning wheel. Now you are in trouble. Likewise, if you don’t press in enough with your hands, the clay piece won’t take shape. It can’t function like it’s supposed to function, for it’s end purpose. But, if you use too much force and just plow into it with too much pressure, you will make it crack, or worse; a hole in the bottom. Then, congratulations, you “ruined” it. Your piece must be restarted from the beginning. You have to rework it into a ball and throw it on the wheel again to start over. How many times do you have to do this to achieve what you want?

We are learning this lesson a lot. My daughter was gifted a kid’s mini pottery wheel for an early Christmas present this year. She asked for one and the grandparent’s delivered. God bless the grandparents! It is, however one thing to know how to do something. It’s an entirely different thing to not have a clue what you are doing and try to teach that to your kids. 🙂 We are humbly learning together while we make a mess on our clothes and in the kitchen. We have to start over and over again. Sometimes we “need to step away from the wheel” and come back later to try again. We have to clean up our messes. We need to keep persisting to “get it right.” We gave up on shaping with the “fancy tools” it comes with and starting free-shaping with our hands. And the kids version of this pottery is made to “air-dry.” You leave it alone overnight and it hardens, no firing required!

If you Google, “how to fire clay” you will learn about the 3-steps to firing it. Step 1: The clay must be set aside to “bone-dry” to be ready for firing. If it is slightly damp when placed into a kiln to fire, it WILL explode. You can start a “candling” process to fire your pottery on low-heat to “dry it out” before firing to ensure it is dry. This process takes a few hours to overnight. Step 2: Bisque-firing. This turns the clay into ceramic. The kiln must be heated to a minimum of 1832*F/1000*C to make it hard, but porous. This is considered a “low-firing.” Depending on the type of clay you are working with, your pottery piece may “be starting it’s process to become mature.” Step 3: Glaze-firing. This is when pottery gets decorated with different finishes, textures and colors to serve it’s function. The glaze makes it waterproof. Normally pottery needs several layers. This firing is done at a slightly lower temperature than the bisque-firing to avoid impurities/imperfections to the glaze layer. Thanks Google. I also read how you can “single-fire” raw clay, but this is considered a “master technique.” It saves time and energy, but it not recommended for beginners.

I think about where this year has taken our family. Bit by bit “chunks” of life: Where are we in this “process”? Sometimes the mundane feels like we are just “spinning around and around.” Are we making any “progress forward?” Times of hardship and transition feel like a “firing.” Is this a first-firing or second? How long is this going to last? “How long must I endure this ____?”

But the heat/pressure/firing is necessary. It might be unfathomably hard to go through or imagine, but it’s necessary. There will be another side. We will be more mature and suited to our purpose and creation on the other side of it. There is going to be purpose and life ahead on the “other side.” God is The Master Potter. He has us in his hands. He’s got this! (So you don’t have to have it all figured out! Yay!). Time is irrelevant and different on His timing. He cares so much for us in the careful and deliberate process. He will not let us move ahead in any of the steps when we are not ready because He knows our intended purpose. We are not mistakes. Have you been inside a pottery shop? The ending creations are all unique and slightly different. It’s the corrected flaws and styles and slight imperfections that make each piece one-of-a-kind.

This Christmas, know that you are one-of-a-kind! Rest knowing that you are not forgotten or lost in the process! He has the finished creation of you in mind!

Thank you Lord for restarts, encouragement, correction and timing and all of it! We know that we can trust you! We know that you see the beginning, the process and the end. You will leave us better and more beautiful than we could imagine! You know that we will be prepared for what is coming. We know that we will be better on the other side of hard things. You see your work and you know that it is good. You are the good Father who lovingly shapes us! We can trust you!

We used a National Geographic Pottery Wheel for Kids. It was about $20. It came with plastic shaping tools (which we found were hard to use). We focused on keeping the clay wet with the included sponge. This set came with two packages of air-dry clay (no firing required). Great for a few uses and we decided that we like free-throwing the clay, instead of trying to use all of the included tools. (We are not being paid for this review, just our honest, initial thoughts.)

Overcoming a Foreboding Spirit (during a Pandemic)

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I was recently telling a friend that I have this reoccurring thought, or string of thoughts based around fear. Saying them out loud sounded absolutely ridiculous. Yet that’s what this “what-if” scenario fear was —completely nonsensical and ridiculous. What was I afraid of ? “What if this happens?! What if THIS happens?!” “What would happen to my husband or family if this happened…” This friend told me, “That sounds like a tormenting spirit…like it’s tormenting you to be afraid of what is not true, or what will even happen to you.” When I asked her what she thought I should do, she spoke truth into my life that “Meditating on God’s Word, meditating on God’s truth…the truth WILL set you free!” Good word, friend!

“But no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged. Any accuser who takes you to court will be dismissed as a liar. This is what God’s servants can expect. I’ll see to it that everything works out for the best. God’s Decree.” -Isaiah 54:17- (MSG)

It wasn’t until later, when I was running at the gym that I was listening to a podcast and the speaker was mentioning about “the foreboding spirit of fear.” I didn’t know what “foreboding” meant. I had to go look it up! According to Dictionary.com, “foreboding” means: “fearful apprehension; a feeling that something bad will happen.”

Now I wasn’t necessarily saying these thoughts out loud over myself, but I felt gloomy thinking them. Kim Potter writes, “The goal of this spirit is to: make fear your guiding voice, steal your joy, remove your ability to live in joy and peace and prevent you from seeing a good future for you and your family.” Anyone ever dealt with this same thing? It put words to how I was feeling! You can read her thoughts entirely on this subject HERE.

So how did I get out of this gloomy funk? I kept digging into THE TRUTH about what God says of me, instead of listening to the lies that I thought were of me, but were far from the truth about me. They are just thoughts. I can take captive of my thoughts. I can repent for the things I have done, or the lies that I have believed. I can ask God to show me the truth about who I am. I can read His Word daily. I can be thankful. I can, I can, I CAN!

So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.” -Romans 12: 1-2 (MSG)

If you are like me and have dealt with these oppressive thoughts that are not your own, I would encourage you to pray, seek God, read His word daily, declare His truth over yourself, change some of your habits if He tells you to…and to know that He is FOR YOU. He is GOOD. He is A LOVING FATHER. He has YOUR BEST. He will never leave you. He has GOOD PLANS for you and YOUR FAMILY. THE BEST IS YET TO COME!

Decree it! Love, Team Carter

” Because of this decision we don’t evaluate people by what they have or how they look. We looked at the Messiah that way once and got it all wrong, as you know. We certainly don’t look at him that way anymore. Now we look inside, and what we see is that anyone united with the Messiah gets a fresh start, is created new. The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! Look at it! All this comes from the God who settled the relationship between us and him, and then called us to settle our relationships with each other. God put the world square with himself through the Messiah, giving the world a fresh start by offering forgiveness of sins. God has given us the task of telling everyone what he is doing. We’re Christ’s representatives. God uses us to persuade men and women to drop their differences and enter into God’s work of making things right between them. We’re speaking for Christ himself now: Become friends with God; he’s already a friend with you. -2 Corinthians 5:16-20- (MSG)

Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.” -Romans 8:26-28- (MSG)

God is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t worry.” -Deuteronomy 31:8 – (MSG)

None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.” – Romans 8:38-39- (MSG)

So, my very dear friends, don’t get thrown off course. Every desirable and beneficial gift comes out of heaven. The gifts are rivers of light cascading down from the Father of Light. There is nothing deceitful in God, nothing two-faced, nothing fickle. He brought us to life using the true Word, showing us off as the crown of all his creatures.” -James 1:17-18- (MSG)

Traveling to Awaken the Dawn 2017 Event in Washington D.C. – Testimonies and Recap

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photo courtesy of Awaken The Dawn Facebook page

They called it the “Holy Spirit Woodstock.” It has been 50 years since the 1967 Woodstock gathering. On Oct.6-9, 2017,  57 tents were set up on the National Mall, for day and night, 24/7, worship and prayer, to see what God will do in our nation, if we ask. We worshipped, we prayed, we cried out. We repented, we reconciled, we celebrated. We did this simply because we love God and believe that He is good. And He has good things in store for our lives, our families, our cities and our nation. The best is YET to come!

This weekend was significant because “it was also the 20th anniversary of Promise Keepers; an event where a million Christian men had gathered on the Mall to pray for revival in America. This weekend gathering also happened during the Feast of Tabernacles when all of Israel was gathering to their nation’s capital in tents! Succat Hallel in Jerusalem was doing a tent gathering in Israel during the same dates.” You can read the entire Awaken The Dawn story and more about how God aligned this historic weekend and vision here.

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photo courtesy of Erin Connor

Once I had heard about this event through Facebook, and again at Morningstar’s Wild Love 2017 conference, I knew that I had to go. I was able to find a flight up to DC a few weeks before and even found a wonderful (and cheap) hostel to stay at, that was minutes away from the Mall. I traveled by myself, but met up with my two friends from Charleston, Karen and Erin. They both bought tickets a few days before the trip and two female beds opened up at the hostel as they were on the phone with them. The Lord provided a nice weekend trip for under $300 each! There was so much favor given to us all weekend! The whole 48-72 hours that I was in DC was amazing and I will try to “give you the highlights”. Thank you to friends and family back home who were praying for this event and also for “coming alongside me” via Facebook Live videos.

These were some testimonies that were reported by the ATD founder, David Bradshaw, on the night of 10/8/17:

  • Over 750 people were sent out to do outreach in the city, and in one group, they offered Jesus to 19 people and those 19 people made a decision to pray and accept a personal relationship with Jesus!
  • At Dupont Circle, a man had bad vision and a team prayed for his eyes. After the first time, his vision increased by 50%. The second time they prayed, he said it was up to 90%. The 3rd time, he was 100% healed and could see perfectly!
  • A man who had had brain surgery years ago and because of it, he had limited muscle movement. He hadn’t been able to do a push-up in over 30 years. After prayer he did several reps!
  • On 14th street, a woman was selling ice-cream out of a food truck. She led 53 people to Jesus from her truck (in addition to selling them ice-cream)!
  • A Muslim family was visiting the Mall from another country and they told one of the ATD volunteers, “This is the most beautiful and real expression of worship we have ever seen. What is going on?” (and they stuck around for awhile).

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photo courtesy of Erin Connor, my friends (old and new): Karen Tetrev, Karen Deloach, me with Grady and Gladys 

A few personal testimonies that impacted me over the weekend:

  • A bunch of people at our hostel where also here for ATD and people were sharing their experiences with God and praying for new friends they just met at breakfast.
  • Our 2 lovely roommates were from Argentina and the 4-5 of us that were experiencing ATD got to spend an hour and a half with them just sharing what God has done in our lives, speak prophetically over their lives and pray with them. Seeds were planted because they have traveled a lot and met a lot of people, but we spoke beautiful words into their lives.
  • It was encouraging to see just about every denomination at this event, where people were truly united because of Christ! People were so friendly and hospitable and there was an atmosphere of peace, love and genuineness. I asked a friend who lives and works in DC if this was normal for the culture of DC and she said “No.”
  • We caught up with old friends from Camp St. Christopher (Elaina who lives in PA and Bethany and TJ Fleming who now live in DC) and it was wonderful to reconnect!
  • At one point during worship, the words were something like “God blowing like a mighty wind” (honestly, I was pretty lost in worship to be reading words off a screen) but a huge wind kicked up and many people felt this swirling wind around them (the wind was blowing around each person) and then it would stop. And start up again at various intervals during corporate worship. It was amazing!
  • Strangers were asking for forgiveness from strangers. Reconciliation happened between blacks and whites as we cried out for forgiveness on racial tensions and issues and white privilege. (Dr. Alveda King and Cindy Jacobs led this portion of one of the gatherings and it was so powerful!)
  • We met a bunch of amazing people, but Karen, Erin and I felt like “long term friendships” were going to be made with our new friends, Julie and Lauretta.
  • A woman tripped in front of us in the line for the food trucks and she was crying and said she twisted her knee. The few of us around her prayed for her knee and after the first time she was able to sit up. The second time she was assisted to her feet. We prayed a third time and I asked her if it was 100%, she said “well, you should pray again.” I told her it was “no problem.” After the 4th time, she walked away pain free!
  • Lots of words were spoken over my life about “writing.” I wouldn’t consider myself a “writer”, nor do I know what I will write about, but I’m claiming it as a future promise over my life and am trying to discipline myself to write everyday (even if it’s just personal journaling).
  • Karen, Erin and I were traveling on the subway at night. We were the only ones in the subway train car. I was talking with them about a dear friend who has breast cancer and needs healing and felt led to pray in the car right then and there. Right after we prayed, the subway car started shaking up and down (as if we were going over rocks or bumps in the road). Our ride had been smooth up until this point and there was a literal shaking after that prayer for about 10-15 seconds. We believe our friend will be healed/is in process of being healed.
  • Karen, Erin and I missed our flight (the last flight out, home) and our check-in attendant, pulled some strings and waived the change-of-flight fee (saved us around $80 each) and then hands us a hotel coupon and tells us to pick the cheapest one. We were told for 3 people it was $69 (which split 3 ways was cheaper than our hostel!) and so we joked it was going to be a run-down motel (at this point, we truly didn’t care) and we pull up to the swanky, Westin Hotel (which should have been around $220/night) and we were able to take hot showers, get some sleep and even grab some complimentary Starbucks coffee! It turned out to be such a blessing!
  • THEN, the next morning at the airport, we thought we saw Randy Clark  in the airport. We had seen about 20 doppelgangers all weekend from home, who we thought were at the event, but in fact they were just their look-alikes. So we assumed it was just a guy that looked like him. So we go to the bathroom, so that we have to pass by his section to double check and his personal assistant walks right up to Karen and confirms that it is the Randy Clark. So we go over and introduce ourselves and because he looked tired (he said he was coming back from a crusade in Brazil), we asked him “What is some advice you could give us?” and he replied, “just keep loving God, keep listening to Him and keep loving others.” (Essentially, we were just commissioned by Randy Clark!)

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photo courtesy of Erin Connor, it was an honor for Karen and I (and Erin) to meet Randy Clark and his assistant as they were coming back from a crusade in Brazil

  • We get to board the plane and although I booked my seats a few months ahead, my seat buddies were Karen and Erin! We thought that was hilarious and we know it means we will be working together at some point and I’m thankful for my relationship with these women!

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Hostels are so much fun! Thanks Hostel International DC!

**I am so grateful for the opportunity to go on a somewhat last minute trip like this. Massive kudos goes out to my hero of a husband, David, who single-handedly made sure our girls were well taken care of, fed and showered while I was gone. I am so thankful that he encouraged me to go.  Also thank you to Granny and Gramps who helped out when David had to be at work. I don’t know what I would do without you! I think that God and I still need to process the work He did in me at this event, but for now, I was glad to be a part of the definite shift that happened in DC.

People were asking, “can we do this next year?!” Oh yeah! The vision for 2018 is to have all 50 state capitals having 24/7 worship and prayer and this time they want to be in partnership with state universities to run it. Get ready Columbia, SC, we are coming for you next year—the whole family! Join Tent America to find out more info.